Nerves

I kept telling everyone how excited I was to actually have my first book signing. Funny that. I mean, now I'm a bundle of frazzled nerves. I received my first box of books on Friday, the very day that our electricity was turned back on after Hurricane Ike stormed through. It was as if God had said, "Now go home and continue what I have enabled you to begin." Yet I came home and found myself in what I like to call a blah blah funk.

So I began cleaning and hardly gave my laptop a second glance. First of all, I was told that many ARC's (Advanced Review Copies) had been sent and second, I sent my own review copies to those who were chosen. Wouldn't you think that would make me excited? No. Frazzled. Nerves. Jumbled. 

So this morning I changed things up. Okay, I allowed God to change things up. I began my morning at 5:15 in prayer. Not able to sleep a big longer, I got out of bed and before I opened my door, I prayed that God would fill me so completey that there would be nothing left of "me." I have a job to do, young people to write for. I may not be, okay, I'm not the best writer, but God has chosen to use Me! ME!! Me? 

It is amazing how God can use broken things. It amazes me daily that He does indeed make all things new. And so I've dediced to create new habits that will get me moving earlier. I've decided that God has not only given me a gift to rach others, He has given me joy that nothing can take away. Not nerves, not fear, not stress, nothing. So I'm finally getting busy again, back to writing.